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I have been gone for so long... well, I was still here just not. The craft show on the 8th of May was a flop. I think I really need to get working so there is enough product for the customers. I also need to pick a product and have it be the center of my focus. I am really liking the miniature life. I am learning new ways of making dolls and I hope I can keep up the flow. I just don't think there are many people interested in miniatures around here.  I have taken a break from any crafts what so ever since the show. It totally wore me out trying to finish that doll house. I didn't even take any pictures I was so busy. I didn't even finish it completely.

I guess I did work on some crafts. I started building the Orchid. I am turning it into Santa's workshop. Santa and a few elves will be  there. I don't think I am going to be worrying about posing ability. There is another show in November. I think that one does better just because it is closer to Christmas. I saw a display over at The Giddy Kimper and Bella Bell Dolls I love the way they displayed their dolls.  I think I want to do that.. Granted I need that many dolls to display.

Oh and little miss Rogue-alina (my cat) is pregnant. She finally came in while I wrote this, her belly still swollen with kitties. I was worried she had not been in the house for the past 2 days so I got worried she was going to have them out side. Hopefully we can get her to stay in. We left the window open upstairs so maybe she would come in and she finally did. When I saw her come back in I quickly ran up stairs and shut it. Maybe we can fix up a place in our room so she has them there. Yeah right.... 

ya know it is depressing....

... when you want something so bad, but you know that it is really not a good time to have it and then you realize everyone around you is getting what you wanted but they never even really wanted it that bad. Does that make sense. I really really want another baby. But I know that is would be very bad to have another one while we are occupying my parents house. It would be sheer chaos. It makes me compare my self to others thinking I am so unworthy of another child. That everything I am doing is wrong. I guess today is going to be one of those days. I am getting sick of this blog. Comments don't work. It's not like anyone would comment anyway. Ugh. Maybe I won't talk anymore and bore you with things about my life that you don't really care about. I mean you all followed me for the art anyway right? OY I am just a ball of fun today aren't I?

Maybe if I started on the doors and windows of the blue cat mercantile or  started designing my business cards for the craft show my mind will be turned in a more delightful mood. I think I need to talk to my Tena. Or have our girls day.

I'll stop wallowing in my own misery now.